It has been sometime

*sits in the library on the second floor, looking out over the balcony for some time, chewing at the end of her pencil briefly*

Much has happened since I have written last. I suppose that I why I have not written.

I found myself stricken with pain not too long ago. As I had another unfortunate visit with the darkness inside of me. It left amessage this time though and left me without my tongue. I cannot keep this presence at bay any longer, though it must be there for a reason.

I am told that I am clever. Perhaps there is a way this presence would coexist with me. So they will think I suffer from a personality disorder... perhaps all the better. They may take me for granted that I am timid and polite, but when the time comes I will be sure to show them what I am capable of.

With this appearance I had bitten off my tongue, I have been telling others that I had a terrible fall down the steps. It would not be so unusual as those steps are neigh deadly enough. I had to change and reschedule a few meetings, one with Lorne who offered to fix me but I must admit that I do not trust magics of other so much now. Denny saw to it that I was taken care of, though he said some very strange words to me... he complimented me... As well as the night before that he seemed to be recalling his past, he seems different. I am under the suspicsion he is suffering from the stress of his new found position.

I must admit, I am finding much stress in this new found position.

In other brief news, Eduard has left the library saying he was called away to the mainland. He shall be missed in the library but as bittersweet as it was, he left me a hand written note. I am most pleased with his progress in writing and would hope to some how recieve letters of his missions. I am very glad I had the opportunity to teach him before he left.

Should anyone ever find this, I think they would find themselves quite lost.

*closes her book and tucks her pencil away, pushing them both into her jacket pocket*